So I originally planned this title to make sense and mid word i was like, to hell with it! and typed random letters :) and it was bro. but yeah so much is in my mind today. is it weird i find this as more of a journalish thing?? thats probably bad. sorry. but i do. if im super happy and can't contain myself i go on here and go NUTS. and then if something is really bugging me I come on here. usually i don't post it, i just write it down. remember 8th grade health when they said you needed a stress reliever? well writing things down? yeah, it works. just saying. but yeah, thats what my original thought is going into this new post.
ANYWAY
so you wanna know something that irritates me to no end?? the one thing that could get me to hate you even if you were the nicest person in the world. well.. if you did this you probably wouldn't be the nicest person in the world.. but its the idea of it. i hate it when people get so caught up in their own problems that they forget that there are other people around them with different/ more severe problems and other things in life to live for. seriously! I mean.. you can't just lock yourself away when somehting bad happens to you. life goes on, you get over it, something else happens, cycle continues. period. but whining and hiding away while people are VERY obviously trying to reach out to you. i hate it. you know what i mean though?? like, when you try to talk to someone and they completely shut you down because of some stupid thing that happened to them (which admititly probably hurt a lot) that they kind of caused. just something ya know.
OTHER WEIRD THINGS THAT HAPPENED AND NOW IM CONFUSED AND STUFF :P
soo I was chatting this guy on fb that i've known for most of my life but stopped talking to in the 3rd grade. i've done it like 3 or 4 times before. but yeah all of a sudden he got, uh, really flirty. like kind of creepy/ holy balls did he just do that flirty. and i don't really get it because it doesn't really happen to me that often. but yeah he was all "the little boy from elemetry school grew up :D" and i was like :O and didn't know what to say so i said "cool:) little girl from elementary school grew up too haha :)" and as i started going into freak out mode he said "Hahahahaha yes i bet she did;)" HOLY FUCK. ok... how should i respond to THAT!?! and so my friend told me to say "yeah im pretty mature now:)" and now that i look back that probably wasn't the best thing to say but i was blanking out. so then he replyed "I bet u are haha:)" and when i didn't respond. (at this point i was begging my sister to help me out-- to no avail) and he said "g2g ill tty soon ;)"
Do guys usually do that? like for real? thats so cheesy and odd. the weird thing is that the conversations before this were completely normal.. maybe because he had a girlfriend?? i'll never know. but yeah. i kind of died. like really who says that? or is that normal and im just new to this. i mean.. woww ok. but yeah that was my night after being sick and procrastinating. holy balls. i need to calm down. fhewwwww
but yeah!! I AM SO FREAKIN' PUMPED FOR CHRISTMAS. i want to go holiday shopping ALL THE TIME. i love christmas. i just hope its a good one this christmas. :)
i am obbsessed with three songs and one band and one album. song #1= Red Cup (I fly Solo)- Cash Cash song #2= We'll Be Alright- Travie McCoy song #3= Marry You- Bruno Mars band= THE BEATLES album= Harmony-Never Shout Never.
thats kinda my story so far :)) BEE HAPPY!!!
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I'm noticing 2 things about this post..
1) its very long and boring and i spend a lot of freak out time.. not good, and im sorry
2) the songs I like are all completely different and its funny. ones all about how great it is to be single, the other how great it is to be young, and the third how great it is to NOT be single and getting married.. that says something haha woowww
hahaha yess, it says something about you and your craziness..i love all those songs except the first one which i dont know yet and am gonna look up. also, especially harmony, chris drew is my favoriteeeeee. anyway. the flirty dude thing. yeah, you asked do guys usually do that like for real? yeah, they do. for real. like remember my little story i told you..yeahh..that?? the one? i hope you know what im talking about. but anyway now i am currently being ignored by said person and possibly perhaps avoided as well. soooo not to dash your hopes or be a downer, but an important lesson i learned with THAT little deal is while flirting is fun fun funn, it doesn't always mean anything. not that it doesn't in this case; it totally could. but just saying, dont fret (ahahah fret) a ton because chances are, because he's a guy, he just wanted to do his little flirty flirty and will probably pretend it never happened. unlesssssss he likes you in which case he will most likely continue. anyway thats what i have to say about that...text me okay?
yeah your probably right. its just guys don't flirt with me that often.. not like that so it just was weird. but no i don't even like him and i think he's a creeper. just saying. but avoided? come on. this kid is going to make me lose my faith in this type of person. really. maybe its nothing? a bad day perhaps? or just that its all stupid.
oh well if you think hes a creeper then never mindd..ahaha. and avoided, yeah, multiple times, bad day, no. bad week/month, maybe? i'd like to think that..and same...not the type of person i thought i guess..or maybe theres something going on that i dont know. idk. i read into things a lot. i hope its nothing. but its starting to look like more than nothing. good thing i like someone else. (whok by the way,i am making noooo progress with whatsoever.)
noo raisa! im so upset :( and yeah thats kinda sketchy.. ugh my phone is broken (again.. i suck) but yeahhhh it could just be something bugging him. but maybe he isn't who you thought he was. it could happen. yeah then there is this other guy.. not creeper really but i talk to him on the bus and uhh. i can't tell if he's flirting just to flirt or if its just friendliness or what.. ugh guyzzz
oh, abby, you phone breaker you. and is this other guy someone you would be interested in or is he a creeper too? and yeah make sure you dont read too much into it and see flirting when its not actually flirting. ugh guyzzz. that was a very true statement. and dont be upset!!!! never fear!!! on wednesday we have a band rehearsal with both bands where i will definitely talk to him because we're both in percussion. and we have another one on monday and the concert on monday too sooo i will make progress. i will. i have to cuz honestly ive made none at all and its been like 3 or 4 months. ugh im such a creep. yeah, i though i was good at figuring out who people were right away, but i guess not. idk. somethings up and i dont know what but i decided to just not worry about that dude because its kinda pointless cuz of...reasons, and anyway i like the other kid so i'll worry about him instead. yeah okay kid you need to get a new phone very soon as in now.
yeah ik!!!! i suck :( and yeah its a loong story. i think you have the right idea, just focus on what matters. and all guys are all hard to figure out so dont worry. and yes! you should take advantage of that. and you aren't a creeper!! your just.. dedicated :) and what did he do? that little... and once i find my ipod i can use that for texting..
good! find it! and what did who do? that kid? he didnt do anything. and yess i am a creeper you have no idea
oh so he's just still doing the whole ignoring thing, that makes sense. and yeah im still kinda looking for it- i forgot to look for it haha its somewhere here i remember i used it exactly one week ago haha :) but yeah. and i didn't want to say anything but yeah.. your a creeper haha. and im so excited for you to finally talk to him during band! and have you asked him to help you with your quad skillz? it is the quads right? or whatever the thing he should teach you ??
yes, its quads, and no, i havent, on account of ive only had one real conversation with him. ive talked to him a couple other times but they dont count, go to my other blog and read them they are ridiculous. but maybe i will tell him to go to pep band SO he can teach me to play quads..two birds with one stone. except that wont work because he only plays quads for pregame so he doesnt know how to play them for the actual songs. so if he went to pep band he would play bass drum. oh well. ugh, see, i am a creep. well whatever he told me this stuff, i didnt find it out through my creeping. so this knowledge is legitimate unlike a lot of my other knowledge..that i got from being a creeper. okay i need help. ick. bye.
oh raisa.. your so funny! ask him though:) and its ok, we all creep. except me! hahaa(not true i spend a lot of time creeping) and you can still talk to him on bass drums right?
yes, i most definitely can:). and i can talk to him about whatever else comes to my mind...hopefully its not something dumb though because i noticed that every time im talking to jennifer and he happens to be walking by, im talking about something dumb. why is that? and btw, you are not the first person to tell me im funny. so im gonna assume you mean laugh-at-able, because im really not funny. people always laugh at things i say and im like, that actually wasnt supposed to be funny. oh well, i shall never understand people.
awwwww raisa!! you aren't laugh-at-able.. more like the things you do are so.. YOU!!! we can't help but laugh :)) and what exactly defines a "dumb" topic?
umm, everything i talk about? hmm, like today, i was talking about reading the newspaper while he was right in front of me in the lunch line. and idk, just dumb random stuff that i talk about all the time. that i realize sounded dumb only after i am done talking about it.
not everything you talk about is dumb. and those are the conversations that keep things interesting! i don't think the things you say sound dumb. its good to talk about more than boys and justin beiber and stuff, and im sure that would scare him away more :) so just keep on keep on :)
well, i will keep on keep on. once i, uh, start. i inda failed to have a conversation with him on wednesday, but i did talk to him. a little. but i have another thingy on monday so i'll try again.
raisa, raisa, raisa.. you disappoint me.. :) jk yeah just try again. its all good haha
yeah cuz im going crazy. i like him so much. im such a freak, cuz, i dont even know him.
thats rough :( but im sure once you get a chance to talk to him it will all work out :) and your pretty awesome and he will definitley see that :))
ok so i got a texting app thingy-- 719-982-8053. hopefully it works!!
hahaha, thanks abby:) and GOOD i will be texting you in roughly a minute and a half..
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