WINTER FREAKIN MELTDOWNNNNN

if there is one messed up thing in the world its a girls ask guys dance

ok so I don't NECESSARILY believe that, but the pure awkwardness of it all just kind of speaks for itself. I'm sorry, boys, for putting so much pressure on you to be romantic. It's surprisingly difficult and makes you as nervous as.. well.. a very nervous thing-- chihuahuas!! I don't like this very much. Plus, if your not already dating someone, or if there isn't a known "thing" it could probably be the most terrifying experience. Take this example: "Hey Ted! I made you a cake!" Ted: "Oh thanks! Oh... meltdown?? uh.. sorry.. but no" Me: "Not even just as friends?" Ted: "No. I hate you. And your really annoying. Leave me alone please?". OK so maybe he wouldn't say it like that but still.. this hypothetical Ted being just changed my most embarrassing moment from the time I puked in class in 6th grade to the time I got rejected.

Although it may not seem so, I actually haven't written myself off. If I wasn't so f***ing nervous/scared I would ask someone in a heartbeat. See, I have two ideas in my head on how this could go. The first I've already explained, the second goes a little like this: Me: "Ted! Go to homecoming with me!" Ted: "Sure! I was secretly hoping you would ask me.." Me: "Well, ya know, I do sometimes read minds." Ted: "Geez, Abby, your the best!!". And such on and so forth. But the truth is it probably won't happen either of these ways, and my overactive imagination has yet again scared me shitless and prepared me for basically the only situations that won't happen.. go figure. The point still remains. I suck at asking people to do date-like things, even just as friends. "Hey Bob! Wanna go see that movie that we both want to see?" Bob: "Like a date?" Me: "Er... *cough*mumble*cough" Just kidding.. I'm busy until that movie is dead. I heard it was terrible anyways" You see my problem. I'm working on it though. Kinda.. it's kind of a rollercoaster of confidence.. Well if I have a date to meltdown we know the answer.

Another thing I learned.. I love couple names! Absolutely think they are the best part of being a couple (Major exageration right there). And not because I am beast at creating them.. a few of the greatest: Chumper (chadderdon, pumper) Schaffolme (Schafferon, Holmes) Trunningham (Cunningham, Triffe). This is my talent. Psh! Who needs college! Just saying.. so if you ever get a boyfriend or girlfriend, or even if you just have a thing, please don't hesitate to call :)

I realize that most of this post won't make sense.. sorry. I just saw that I hadn't posted in too long, and everything I had to post about before is either too boring or over.. soo this is basically what I have... Hopefully my awkward freshmanness is enough to entertain the masses?? I think so ;) BEE HAPPY!!

laughattack

To all the guys who think its funny to...

1. make that little fart noise with their armpit- not funny
2. pants someone- kinda funny but only if it happens to someone else
3. make a fool of themselves- c'mon man!!
4. overuse the same joke, thats what she said! over and over.. and over again- way to have creativity??
5. be so effing complicated!!- arhggg
6. do that funny walk thing- you don't look cool or attract anyone, you just look like a douche
7. make a joke that isn't funny- this is pretty self explanitory
8. be plain stupid- it may impress your buddies but the rest of us think your a douche bag
9. be a jerk- look at numbers 2, 5, and 8.. you will get it
10. play you- shut up.. its kinda ridiculous that you have a girlfriend yet still want to flirt and trick girls into thinking everything wrong. your a d***

its funny for about 5 minutes (except pantsing.. im sorry that can be pretty funny.. and the fool thing.. that can be pretty funny too. but everything else is a pain in the ass!)

so excited for christmas break!!! no school next week and a half day friday?? yes :) BEE HAPPY!!

laughattack

times a'tickin

does everyone remember when micheal jackson died? yeah remember the year after? remember how incredibly fast that year went? and now its christmas time. i was just thinking about that.. but yeah raisa check out the comments on the last post...

so yeah i can't wait for christmas break!! only one more week..one more week. and possible only a four day week if the snow is really really nice to us students? yes. but yeah its snowing soo much. i kinda love blizzards haha. im sitting by the fire and looking out at this storm and supperr peaceful. its nice because i actually was so stressed this week that my stomach just turned off and i lost my appetite. but hey! i lost 5 pounds so that was nice haha. but i miss eating, so im excited for it to return completely. and yeahh! thats all, really. but i thought it was time for a new post.. sorry. BEE HAPPY!!!!

laughattack

ARUGHUASHFASKDHF

So I originally planned this title to make sense and mid word i was like, to hell with it! and typed random letters :) and it was bro. but yeah so much is in my mind today. is it weird i find this as more of a journalish thing?? thats probably bad. sorry. but i do. if im super happy and can't contain myself i go on here and go NUTS. and then if something is really bugging me I come on here. usually i don't post it, i just write it down. remember 8th grade health when they said you needed a stress reliever? well writing things down? yeah, it works. just saying. but yeah, thats what my original thought is going into this new post.

ANYWAY

so you wanna know something that irritates me to no end?? the one thing that could get me to hate you even if you were the nicest person in the world. well.. if you did this you probably wouldn't be the nicest person in the world.. but its the idea of it. i hate it when people get so caught up in their own problems that they forget that there are other people around them with different/ more severe problems and other things in life to live for. seriously! I mean.. you can't just lock yourself away when somehting bad happens to you. life goes on, you get over it, something else happens, cycle continues. period. but whining and hiding away while people are VERY obviously trying to reach out to you. i hate it. you know what i mean though?? like, when you try to talk to someone and they completely shut you down because of some stupid thing that happened to them (which admititly probably hurt a lot) that they kind of caused. just something ya know.

OTHER WEIRD THINGS THAT HAPPENED AND NOW IM CONFUSED AND STUFF :P

soo I was chatting this guy on fb that i've known for most of my life but stopped talking to in the 3rd grade. i've done it like 3 or 4 times before. but yeah all of a sudden he got, uh, really flirty. like kind of creepy/ holy balls did he just do that flirty. and i don't really get it because it doesn't really happen to me that often. but yeah he was all "the little boy from elemetry school grew up :D" and i was like :O and didn't know what to say so i said "cool:) little girl from elementary school grew up too haha :)" and as i started going into freak out mode he said "Hahahahaha yes i bet she did;)" HOLY FUCK. ok... how should i respond to THAT!?! and so my friend told me to say "yeah im pretty mature now:)" and now that i look back that probably wasn't the best thing to say but i was blanking out. so then he replyed "I bet u are haha:)" and when i didn't respond. (at this point i was begging my sister to help me out-- to no avail) and he said "g2g ill tty soon ;)"

Do guys usually do that? like for real? thats so cheesy and odd. the weird thing is that the conversations before this were completely normal.. maybe because he had a girlfriend?? i'll never know. but yeah. i kind of died. like really who says that? or is that normal and im just new to this. i mean.. woww ok. but yeah that was my night after being sick and procrastinating. holy balls. i need to calm down. fhewwwww

but yeah!! I AM SO FREAKIN' PUMPED FOR CHRISTMAS. i want to go holiday shopping ALL THE TIME. i love christmas. i just hope its a good one this christmas. :)

i am obbsessed with three songs and one band and one album. song #1= Red Cup (I fly Solo)- Cash Cash song #2= We'll Be Alright- Travie McCoy song #3= Marry You- Bruno Mars band= THE BEATLES album= Harmony-Never Shout Never.

thats kinda my story so far :)) BEE HAPPY!!!

laughattack

CRUSHED

SO!! hofam was undefeated 14-0 when we got to the state finals...


damn


ummm there was kinda a humbling moment when we were crushed 14-41.. haa

but then i realized.. i don't care much about our football team. like, i have school spirit and all, its just when we are losing and stuff its hard to get into it. plus mostly all i do is admire the seniors.. for there football talent!! haha.. seniors... :)

but yeah, i feel like crap nbd. i hate being sick. for some reason i always get sick like every 2 or 3 weeks.. and its not sleep or stress or anything like that. im just getting sick. my parents think that something is up and im trying to get out of class. NOT TRUE. well.. not totally true. but what is your staying home vs. toughing through it stance? I say, make whatever decision you want but suffer the consequences of staying behind. escpecially in math. bleh. but yeah ill probs go unless my throat still hurts in the morning, then ill take a full or half day off. i think thats pretty reasonable?? but yeah. thats my life right now.

is it creepy that i think my little cousins are ADORABLE?? not like, romantically because they are 9 and under but i can't get over them! im always like, "your so cute" or "i love you so much, your adorable!" i think they got sick of it but whatevs. stories to tell them when they are older i guess haha. but yeah sorry for the randomness and shortedness of this.. kinda tired and stuff :) BEE HAPPY!!!


laughattack

FINALLY

I am so sorry.




I won't give excuses, I just suck at time managment and remembering things.


Back to life.

Ok, so its quarter 2, pulling off a B- in math, and feeling pretty good about it. B- you say??? You try that in an honors class with a japanese teacher who says that you will end up commiting suicide if you can do a problem in only one way. And then tells us to throw up in a bucket. I still like her and learn things, its just hard. but enough of that, I'm sorry I have to bring this up but I do. As you may know, in september of 2008 something terrible happened to me. My Uncle Peter died of brain cancer on a Sunday night, and it was devastating. In March that same year is when he was diagnosed. Coincidentally, it was the same evening I first created this blog, so my first post is actually the day we found out about Uncle Peter's condition. That day was one of the most terrifying, emotional, and miserable days of my life. As I was creating this very blog, I heard my mother burst into uncontrolable, unending, and earth-shattering sobs. Being as young as I was, I didn't think much of it. Until she sat me down and explained to me that my beloved uncle was gravely ill, and that we should pray for him and my cousins and aunt to conquer the cancer. April. May. June. July. August. During August is when we usually take our annual Rhode Island trip. It was a little different this time, however. We first stopped at Connecticut to stay at my aunt's house. Unkowingly, my parents had planned for us to say our goodbyes to my uncle. We went to the hospital to see my uncle, a brilliant man of great skill and intelligence, locked on a hospital bed, He was banned from consuming anything but water, and he was very much co-dependant. We hugged him with a "Get better Uncle Peter! See you!" We returned home, and not a month later did a call come to our house on a Friday afternoon. "Peter is dying" was the message. I don't remember exactly what was said, or even who called. All I remember is balling on the staircase as my babysitter consoled me, as my parents were out of town. We called them to ask if we could go see him before his inevitibal parting. "Remeber when we visited him this summer?" "Yeah.." "That was your goodbye, I'm sorry honey". That was a comfort food night. Then we get to Sunday about midnight, We gathered in my sister's room and the news hung in the air for an immeasurable amount of time until it collapsed, heaving onto all of our shoulders as we huddled together with tears flighting past our cheeks. And that was that.

Why on earth did I waste your (and my) time explaining all of this? Because tonight, it hit again. Thankfully not in my family, but my father's coworker was diagnosed with an inoperable brain tumor. Newly divorced and recently without a job, he has kids 15 and younger dealing with a rough split between parents and a father facing death. It hit home. Cancer is not a fight, its a war. We've already lost millions of battles, Uncle Peter was one of them. But we are winning them too. We need to win more battles, We need to beat cancer. Please, I would never ask for anyone to give money or anything, but I am praying for this family and the countless others struggling for each victory against this awful and life destroying disease.


I'm truly sorry posted after a long absence with such a sad post, but I found this out today and it needs to be known. I'll try to post something happier soon. Probably tomorrow.. just saying :)


laughattack

do da john wall suckaa

far left video..

please, bask in its glory and phenomenon :) thanks